We spoke of taking pictures,
that vision briefly visits, like light.
Delusion’s weather, too, and
here today are its giant legs of fog,
stomping out its figures,
splashing cattle on the grizzled creek,
tripping over slumps of fields
and spitting into culverts.
Clouds swim low as mud,
ignorant of every bird they’ve drowned.
Feathers blur as my green-eyed lashes
grey in notes of rain,
which come to sing to worms,
draw away the snakes of mist.
“Leave me,” they will sing,
to see what I am in this world,
“Let me take the picture I swore I saw.”
But nothing hears how silent I am; I stay still
as I can be, but nothing moves.


The books of poetry tower
from the bedside table.
At night they are a pillar,
the rib of
a lost colosseum,
or occasionally, when the moon comes,
steps of a cathedral.
Some nights the moon comes and
carries them to
the ceiling, mirroring
my descent.
I have this very old dream: they are waiting
for me in a bright current
so that I can find the words
to read to them again.
At night, they are a bridge.

Three Canoes


Yesterday I saw my canoes,
three still lives trapped in snow.
I thought of you, the ice
that keeps alive the dead.
But today, I see you differently.
I view you as haiku,
then as three crosses from the hill,
silent but forsaken.

Early Spring


Now in the Spring the geese gather on
the shreds of ice. At the end of winter
you said to leave you alone. I drive up 
to Algonquin and pass the melting lakes
where I stopped to show you. I watched
you as birds blackened the trees.
Now I’ll be grateful for the fair weather,
like any other Spring, knowing the time for it,
not the place, when the birds landing
are an image of your black hair.

Winter Trapping


I just remembered the red fox
that showed up by the snowbank as we drove
to find a spot that night. It ran ahead in the net of headlights,
drew us out
into the unplowed road
until we listed, a tugboat, you said,
in whitecaps, trying
to push on.
I remembered you too,
that way we were together, your small body
ferrying mine,
and past the window,
empty houses on hills of snow,
a plow
rasping below, salting
streets, and
under your teeth, lament.

Your Other Heart


I forgive you for your innocence.
I forgive you for the blood under your tongue;
it is the flesh of your other heart. 
I forgive that you bury it,
turn it to a thing that grows underground
in the way a promise promises itself
to die inside.


There they are, nothing.
The tiny biographies he wrote,
as they were dying. As the wine
and the coffee they drank
loved them. Turns her pages,
sees nothing now
that resembles him, all this
that remains of him.


I love the drive up Perth County Road
to Wellesley with the snow not quite covering
the shaven waves of soybean crops,
and every so often a Mennonite farmer,
like a black speck on a camera lens
waves at a horse he’s calling, as I pass.
A philosopher said our choices are who we are,
but all I gather is that there is night,
there is morning and then there is night.
I’m not quite old, but it’s harder to see the light,
once you’ve seen it. I can only guess now that
choosing involves trying to forget what your
body recalls, along the way; we are constant
traitors. So, maybe it’s a good thing that all I do
this morning is describe the world around me,
like a child’s first day in front of the shiny
letters of an alphabet that some season will replace
the trillion phrases of his own inborn tongue.
Here, though, as I drive further, asphalt gives
into gravel, then over little bridges meant
for buggies into towns that tried humbly
to exist. There’s no truth in them. They don’t lie.
They carry on, playfully vanishing
back into a lived innocence, which I guess
is how winter is supposed to make you feel.
The sameness of snow, it appears, makes
itself a landscape offering no choice, just
an unheard calling. I’m glad it’s winter now.
I suppose it makes sense. The fences are broken
with ice, and glued with it. There is light
falling from the sky, and a horse has wandered
into the road. A man is passing from fifty years ago,
a blur streaked with snow.