Thursday evening the dogs run ahead
through the unraked cheeks of leaves. I’ve let things stay
and circle around too much. I’ve lost the air
for other things. The drive into the city for winter tires,
the tail-lights that need repair, the brakes
I’ve been riding too long.
I stand here at the door
a little while more, and let the dogs
feed scraps of barks into the breeze.
I suppose, to them, its seems alive, shuffling along,
casting out and resurrecting the dead. But dogs
shouldn’t dream. Night’s here, the week is ending.
In a few minutes, winter returns.
I imagine you must be free now. You always knew the secret to it. You’d just change your name, live on. Meanwhile, I wonder. There is waking. There is sleep. Is there a third world? Is there a place for earth to rise and to fall? Are you there, still? Can you give me a hint, how to say it now?
No stars, geese low, traveling south.
You feel that your body in darkness is
It rubs lightly past the faint window
of your room, an image, still,
skimming water between morning
and the southerly transmigration of dreams.
Closing the glass, it whistles a thought,
sleepily, but you,
your lips rest, and hum another thing.
You think of birds.
One feels nothing
when the first days of November
arrive to fill in the wind-scoured constellations of geese
or to carry away
the sour mounds of apricot,
October peeled away.
where do the deer sleep here,
wake, cut away
under the grey trance of sky
when the blind car unzips its haste down
the threadbare road revealing
crops of still life too ingrown for
decay and that crisscross beneath
the unspoken snow,
yet to make landfall.
The floor’s scuffed
stricken as a cirrus sky.
Not a sound comes to me.
I miss the thunder.
I’m waiting for you,
the words for you.
I miss the lightning.
Hill above Conestoga,
between your fingers, a seedpod
hatching tiny feathers.
They migrate into the distance
hand prints of leaves,
giving in to
their brief flight,
and their glassy
does it rain
in the desert?
from your bones,
old rivers that scented trees,
their nakedness pointing you
to the sky,
do not ring.
Unless that’s your voice,
calling down from upstairs,
asking again whether
I’ve seen the can opener,
I’ve looked everywhere for you.
See? A dog digs digging!
Cupboard and drawer, every one agape,
like desecrated catacombs.
45 US on Amazon, you say.
I’m not sure how long I’ve been here
figuring out how long I’ve been here on my own,
you know, how I thought we just did
the wallpaper in that room
I could always find you in,
or how things add up
when you take yourself away
to, at least, the third floor,
without bothering to leave me
the forwarding address
that brings you back,
or the kitchen window custom fitted
in a sequin pattern dress of rain,
that seems to come down out
each drop suggests,
while the tin trash cans out there
just stammer on about its beauty.